blackhawk

Losing self control

2006-04-16T21:01:00.000-07:00

I've never been the kind of person
to ever let my feelings show.
Because I thought being strong
was never showing your weaknesses.
But I'm all alone and
the bottles calling my name.
To hell with my pride.
I'm going to let it all fall
like rain, from my eyes.

WHY

2006-04-16T20:55:00.000-07:00

I didnt mean to make you cry.

I dont know why I do that to you.

Why do i push you til you break?

I know I would never let you walk away.

Why do I hurt you so much

And then use those three little words,

so you dont leave me

"I Love You"

Sometime I wonder why I do that to you...

Memories

2006-04-16T20:52:00.000-07:00

Everytime i here your name the memories come rushing back to me.

Some nights there welcome and others i just can't get them away from me.

I've finally come to realize that your gone and not coming back to me.

But as long as these memories keep haunting me you'll never be gone to me.

I've got one last memory to wash away and its what your name means to me.

Single Again

2006-04-13T11:13:00.000-07:00

Theres a couple of things I love about being single

S- stay
I- intoxicated
N- nightly
G- get
L- laid
E- everyday

She likes me for who i am

2006-04-13T11:10:00.000-07:00

She's watchin me from the front porch
I'm riding that Big John Deere.
She's everything that i ever dreamed of,
She's crazy about me and my tractor.
She's the only one who really understands me.
She dont like those fast cars and pick-ups
but if it runs like a Deere, her eyes light up.
I ain't nothin but a country boy and that
doesnt phase her a bit.
She just thinks my tractors sexy...

From Behind

2006-04-13T11:09:00.000-07:00

Your words fall from your mouth

and cause this pain i feel.

They stab me in the back like a knife

that you would have been holding.

I've tried over and over to forgive

but theres nothing left i can do.

I'm tired of apologizing for

something that i did not do.

I've found peace with myself

and its as far as i can be from YOU

Straight Tequila

2006-04-13T11:05:00.000-07:00

Its just straight tequila
but its keepin her off this restless mind.
the memories are more than i can bare, and sometimes
that tequila is what washes then away.
Dont come lookin for me
when the bottles open.
The body is there, but the mind
is gone lookin for some peace.
So its just a Straight Tequila night...

Perfect

2006-03-30T16:10:00.000-08:00

We always tired to be the PERFECT couple
But we had our fights, and said things we didn't mean.
We would push each other to the edge, and start all over again.
Then we found out that we were PERFECT, atleast in our eyes we were.
Everyone is goin to have there problems in a relationship and thats a fact.
So this is only the begining and we have to trust each other,
For without that trust no relationship will go far.

What happened to you

2006-03-30T16:04:00.000-08:00

You use to be the one I loved but now I despise you

You let me down again and again

I trusted you to be my friend but you turned your back on me

I trusted you to be the one to hold me and you let me fall

You didn't consider my feelings, just your own

Now your left wondering what could have been

Hows it feel to be left with nothing

Only that feeling of Loneliness...

Waiting

2006-03-30T16:00:00.000-08:00

I'm waiting for You
I'm waiting till your ready baby
I'm waiting beacause I Love You
I will be waiting for You, day and night
I will always be waiting for You
For I love You and nothing can change my mind
You may not feel the same way about me now, but I know
I can change Your mind!!!

Insecurities

2006-03-27T20:17:00.000-08:00

My truth is that I'm not so

good, at showing how I feel...

Or keeping my mouth shut,

when there's something to

conceal...Or knowing how to

love, love's not in my memories...

How can I rise above, All my

INSECURITIES...

TMIE (TIME)

2006-03-21T15:39:00.000-08:00

Wtcah it fly by as the pedluunm sniwgs, for it's a vablluae tinhg

For eervy btreah you tkae the ccolk kpees tinckig

Yuor lfie can be tkaen aawy in a of mtetar of sonedcs, so cerhish eevr bit of it

TMIE is PIRELCESS

In the time it took to to read that it wasnt much longer than what it would have taken to read it if it was spelled right

I'm Country

2006-03-14T16:09:00.000-08:00

Tearin' down a dirt road, rebel flag flyin',

'Coon dog in the back.

Truck bed loaded down with beer,

An' a cold one in my hand.

Earnhart sticker behind my head,

Tail-pipe's poppin', the radio's rockin':

"Country Boy Can Survive".

If you don't love the American flag,

You can kiss my country ass.

I said if you got a problem with any of that,

You can kiss my natural born,

Redneck to the bone,

COUNTRY ASS.

-Rhett Akins-

American

2006-03-14T16:06:00.000-08:00

I am an American

I live to be FREE

For this country is my life

And an American I will be

I live FREE in this country

Always day and night

Becasue I am an American

I will always Fight

WORLDS

2006-03-14T15:54:00.000-08:00

My world is different from yours
We all have different worlds for we male our own decisions
That's why my worl is different
I live in a world where Courage is everything
Your world could have whatever you choose as you make it that way
Thats why my world is different from yours and it will always
Be that way as long as I choose to make it that way...

Nobody Like ME

2006-03-05T08:49:00.000-08:00

Nobody like me, but why?

Is it because i'm different

Or is it becuase i don't follow the group

You don't say anything to me

Instead you ignore me, and that's what gets to me

Is it becuase i'm to good for you

This is a constant cycle and no one realizes it

And it's starting to get to me

Thats why i think nobody like me

But the scary thing is

that you ignore and push people away

and you don't even know

Your doing it....

skin

2006-03-05T08:43:00.000-08:00

It's what holding me in

There's a place inside of me

It's right underneath my skin

It's like a voice inside of me

It's a face that awakes when I close my eyes

It watches me everytime I lie

And laughs when I fall

It's all right underneath my

SKIN

voices

2006-02-14T18:46:00.000-08:00

these voices in my head are driving me to the edge
these voices make no sense to me
but i'm not going to let these voice take me over
i'm pushing these voices away from me for theis no use to me
these voices drive fear into me and i drive fear out of me
its an everlasting cycle
but i'm going to end it right now
i'm stronger than these voices that are put into my head
thats why these voice now make no sense to me!

tension

2006-02-14T17:15:00.000-08:00

This tension is building inside of me

Because you hate me but why

I've done nothing to you

I've just been me

So why do you do this to me

Because I'm different

Because I'm not like you

One night isn't enough

2006-02-01T20:18:00.000-08:00

It was only one night, but it keeps playing in my head.
I laid awake to watch you fall asleep.
And woke up to find you still next to me.
Now I only dream about you and that Beautiful smile....

2006-01-31T17:40:00.000-08:00

so much pain

so much darkness

through this life I live

but thy lord is thy shepared

and he will carry thee from

darkness to the light

and I will stand forever in his

Amazing Grace

ME

2006-01-31T17:33:00.000-08:00

Well for my first post i thought i would just tell u about myself, i'm from nothern New York, ogdensburg more specifically but not to many people know where that is. You could kinda call me a hick because i love to hunt, fish and be in the woods all the time and theres the fact that i would much rather be in the country than in the city. well thats about it for now!!